time to go back to school

I HATE SCHOOL not only is pointless but when you have less than a half year left till you are done with high school you can hardly stand to get out of bed in the morning. so for now i am forced to get up and go and deal with it. But at lest i have had the past two weeks to just sit back and do absolutly nothing and let me tell you it was amazing i got to sleep in and do nothing! what more can anyone ask for. So I today I am doing nothing sitting in my room and watching gossip girl (love this show) and pigging out on as many carbs as possible because as of tomorrow it is time to get in shape for mexico =) so no more carbs. for me (or my mom) because i plan to be walking around mexico in as little clothing as possible. Just kidding I will be commpletly dressed at all times ;).

what more can i ask for?

Today i was siting in my room reading over all the comments that my wonderfully amazing Friends have left me and i started to get teary eyed! It was so weird and that's when it hit me there is no way that i can even fathom how any one could ask for better friend. With Abby always there to listen and take my side (even if i was wrong) she is constantly there to help me. I know that i can call her any time i need to talk and she can make it right again. Then there is Cassie. I don't know what i would do with out her so is the crazy one that gets me out doing thing i would never think OK doing other wise. And lastly i have Kailey she is amazing. Between the crazy late night run to a guys house for clothes or just siting around talking she is always there for me. I love all three of you and i would not be me with out them. They make me me and for that i am truly thankful.

Time

so first i would like to say that it has not been by choice that i don't wright but the fact that i no longer could. The play room has relocated and the computer stolen out from under me. So how am i managing to get this out now???? That would be my amazing new computer! My mom and dad got it for me as an early grad. gift and a late b-day gift and i could not have asked for anything better at all it is 130% PERFECT!

Now on to the really impotent stuff like the fact that for the first time in over a month me and my sisters have finally been able to sit back and relax (with some help from the 2 and 4 year old) it was so nice we did nothing but sit in my room listening to music and talking and not just the what ever kind of talking but the we have not all been in the same room in over a month! This may now be a new record for us. Over the summer it was an off day if we did not see each other every day and now we are lucky to see one another every other week. I so can not wait for graduation because this summer we get to sit back and do nothing but enjoy are new freedom. I will give you a heads up that when my sisters go away to college it is possible i will lose it. Actually that is more like a guaranty. Well we will just have to wait and see how that works out.

Study

So right now i am sitting in Abby's house doing nothing. We were working on home work but now i am done and she and Kelsey are still hard at work so i was like perfect time to blog because i never seem to find time when i am at my house. Speaking of my house I am staying away at all cost. So what happens was that yesterday my dad asked me to take out the trash some time that day and I was like sure I can but I have things to do today so I will do it later. So later I get a call from him and as soon as I answer he starts yelling saying that if it is not done with in the next 30 min. I lose my car for a week. I was like WTF. So I try to tell him that I have co-op and leave school early so I need a car and he gets even more mad at me and hangs up. I call me mom to ask her what is going on and if I could do it when I got home because like I had told my dad I was not driving and we had just got to the store so I could not just be like turn around the store was not that close. She gave her cell to my dad to answer and he was like she wont be any help to you at all. WTF!!!!!!! So we turn around because I have to have a car and get to my house to find no one home. Well if I was not pissed before I sure was now I walked into the house and slammed my keys into the floor along with my bag. So now I am not talking to my mom or my dad and I have to go see them at some fam. thing.


This should be fun!

Sisters and boys

last weekend I went up to central to see my sister Alex and had an amazing time. Well until a stupid boy took her heart and smashed it against the wall. The worst part in all of this is that they live in the same house and even the same floor. So now she is hiding out not wanting to go home because she may have to see him but she did nothing wrong he was the one that told her how much he liked her the night before and then the next day stayed the night at some girls house. Now he has both me and are other sister Ellie wanting to kill him because you can't hurt one of us and not have the others braking down the door.

Two days later I get a call from Kailey and I know something is up. She has just got off work and wants to come over NOW. When she gets to my house I can tell something is up but before we can talk I have to help my mom with the kids. So now today she called two times and sends me a message so i get off work and call her she wants to hang out and i told her to come on over. When Kailey gets to my house she said she needed to talk and just drive around to clear her mind. It turns out all this time her and her boy friend have been on a brake because he thinks that she has changed and he hates the fact that she talks to other boys.

After seeing two of my sisters get hurt this bad I can only come up with one thing, boys suck and no mater what you do you can't make them happy (so that was two things get over it).

Everything

So today i have a chance to actually sit down at the computer for more then five seconds and read what some of my favorite people have been up to. Yes I see them almost on a daily basis but its the things that they can't or wont say out loud that I get to read and i love it.

Over the last couple of weeks I leaned somethings that by the time you turn 12 you should all ready know.

1. Just because you have a car does not mean it will work.
2. Some times wishes don't come true.
3. Not all people care
4. You may think somebody knows you but then again you could be wrong.
5. Friends don't always stay friends.
6. people will walk out of your life (even if it hurts you).
7. Family is meant to be confusing.
8. People will lean on you a little to much.
9. You can't always be in control of your life.
10. And last but not least fishing is hard!!!

If you have not noticed by now my life has been on the edge of a cliff threatening to fall into hell at any time. My grandpa went in for surgery and came out unable to walk (that was not supposed to happen) and because he was in the hospital for so long he became depressed and was getting worse. He is finally able to walk a little and is home but still not at his best.

Work has now taken over my life. If not at MD then I am at home changing dippers ( not my idea of a good summer vacation). What ever happened to doing nothing but hanging out with your friends at the pool and being crazy. I feel like every time i do get to hang out with my friends all we talk about is what colleges we want to go to and what summer homework is still left to do.

My house has been taken over by children and you can no longer even change in a room that has no lock on the door. But on the plus side i have completely redone me closet and looks amazing. I wish that I had Abby's ability to just dance and sing and be crazy in my own house but I don't see that happening,

School starts on the 2nd and it makes me sick that summer is all ready over. Soon it will be homework every night. But homecoming is early this year and that means i can get an amazing dress and not freeze to death during pictures for once.

Unfortunately the only baby i am responsible for is now awake and screaming his head off so I have to go.

crazy

So I know it has been way to long but with work, class (no not summer school), and trying to have a life I don't have the time to breath let alone go on the computer. so today after working an eight hour shift i come home to an empty house and can actually hear my self think! It is amazing there are no little kids running around screaming and no parents with the T.V. so loud that you can hear nothing. So let me back track. Fourth of July was good. I spent the day at the beach with my mom, cousin, and brother getting sunburned and watching fireworks (they were OK). But the day before we had to put are 15 year old dog to sleep and i lost it. Thank god i have people that love me to help pull all the pieces back together even if they are two hours away. I still think that one morning i will wake up and she will be laying next to my bed like she used to. But it is part of life and we have to learn to move on but to always keep a that loved one in the heart.

Over What?

Some days nothing but you never know with me. Most days I am happy as can be but others you may just want to stay out of my way. I have amazing friends. We are so close and know each other so well that we are more like sisters. Even though I do have two real sisters. Cassie, Abby, and Kailey have been with me since birth. We can read each others minds and always Know when something is wrong. We are crazy and fun, the life of the party. We are nothing alike but at the same time exactly the same, Let me know how that works,. Cassie is the athlet (swim) and is stronger and been through more then anyone should ever have to. Abby is the writer and is way to smart. Kailey is the fun loving baby sister that we all look out for but she can take care of her self if she has to. Then theres me Pinks. I am some place in the middle of all of this. I am not as smart as Abby and could not play a sport to save my life. I don't think i could ever be as funny as Kailey so were do i stand? I'll let you tell me.